Hustle Culture, Make Self Improvement, Etc

I find in 2023 that hustle culture and male self improvement are remarkably unconvincing. 

Class dominates my thinking. It becomes more important than my gender and my race, dominating how I see myself and others. 

I have not felt strongly about what I do for many months. Is that as bad as I think it might be?

Remember when you first came to Manila: those strong, overwhelming emotions, the desire to love and be loved. You have that now. 

No longer do you need to place the foundation of your esteem at the shifting feet of others. 

Moving, eating, playing, reading... these should be enough? 

What can I do with these 'themes' or 'concepts' that I am collecting from literature? It seems that 'greed for power' and 'class' are key themes. What to do with them?

I feel I need to read more. 

I'm curious to find out how hustle culture and male self improvement have fared in 2023. Do they still have the same appeal they had previously? 

Class seems to have taken precedence in my life over gender and race. I'm wondering if that's as bad as it seems. 

I'm also trying to rediscover the joys of everyday activities, and looking back to when I first arrived in Manila — the emotions I experienced and the desire to be loved — to find the same kind of meaning I was seeking in the hustle culture and male self improvement. 

I have been gathering insights from literature about 'greed for power' and 'class' and I am trying to figure out what to do with them. I know that reading more might be the answer, but it seems like there could be a more meaningful way to interpret them.